Believing in GOD and Jesus Christ as our savior is transforming me from the material to the spiritual. What is the spirit? I have to be perfectly honest and admit that I'm not quite sure. Is it a visible entity that leaves an ectoplasmic trail when separated from our bodies? I think not. I believe spirituality or more importantly, healthy spirituality, comes from exorcising spiritual blocks. For me, a multitude of sins weighed heavily on my conscience and my conscience is, I believe, my spiritual barometer. Fear was my main demon. Most of my sins could be traced back to fear. Fear of being considered less than my peers led to greed and the sins that accompany that demon, such as stealing, lying and cheating. Fear of reality led to substance abuse, which made me spiritually dead. I was given to fits of anger, self pity, self loathing, self justification and everything was about me. All in all, if our spirits were visible entities, I would have been a walking corpse.



There is another kind of spirit, which is the Holy Spirit, which visibly descended on Christ when he was baptized by John The Baptist in the river Jordan. The Holy Spirit is a gift from GOD that is bestowed on those who accept Jesus Christ as their savior and Son of GOD. When I opened myself to it, no, I did not see it descend from heaven like a dove as it did with Christ, nor did I experience an immediate change. What I did realize was that I had hope. Hope to atone for my sins and to be forgiven. The power and comfort that I felt when I realized that I could be forgiven is, what I believe, the path to my enjoying a more healthy spirit. Knowing that our Creator loves me without condition and is willing to hear my confessions and issue me a pass has led to a healthier, clean life, less congested with material desires and independent of the need for status. My spirit is just as comfortable in a small house, driving a small car as it would be in a mansion, driving a flashy car. The most important things to me now are my family and my service to GOD.



I still make mistakes and seek forgiveness on a daily basis. Despite my best efforts, I'm only human. I don't use that as an excuse to sin though. I strive each day to decrease my faults and though GOD and Jesus Christ, each day I feel my fear slowly melting away.